Inspiration

I'm actually a better reader than a writer...blogging is still very new to me..its because i have so many things going on in my head...i really dont know what to write at times..its like my mind is moving swiftly from one thing to another..i really wanted to write...but now when ive begun writing...i dont know where to start..
I've read some amazing blogs here....ive started small...just read a few but im really really inspired...i always wanted to write about religious teachings and my day to day life, what i go through as an indian teenager living in dubai who is often confused as an arab,..nothing great...but once i get into the flow of things...i will start writing much better...(ii hope so)......but i really have to limit my reading....since my eye number shoots up like nobodys business....my mum has also started to keep an eye  on my pc timings...and everyone is lecturing me on taking care of my eyes...and i really do deserve it...knowing that my eyes are really weak and being myopic...i still never really cared....for the first week i was a good girl....avoiding the computer taking care of my time...and now ive reverted back to my reader...its like i need something to read...like(god forbid) a drug..and reading too much is really my vice...occasionally when mom gets angry she says....if i was to live without a computer i would die....and it really is true....i really cant imagine a life without computers and i really dont think anyone can...
what i really want to talk about is how we humans decide to change drastically....it goes on for a few days..before we bounce back into our old ways...like a smoker who decides to stop...goes on for a few days...and then goes back to smoking..and sometimes even more than the amount he smoked before...
i guess thats the problem with us...we lie in wait for something to inspire a change in us...like a perfume..when you apply it...you are smelling good...after sometime when the smell fades away...we need to apply more of it in order to keep smelling that way....the right amount of smell...we humans are in constant need of inspiration as our lives go on...and we really cant wait for something to come along and change us...change should be from within. And inspiration should also be found from within..!